Day 2

There's a light in your eyes
A tinkle in your voice
I've memorised your face
It's 
Perfect

You dont have to be here
I feel your smile
Playing at your lips
Laughter like rain
Resounding
Refreshing
Beautiful
The only word.

But you'll never know
Maybe you do
I can't speak-
It's agaisnt me
I'm held back by
By me
I have my rules
And you have yours
So I'll walk at the border
Hopefully
Just hoping
That you notice

It's plain painful
Knowing
How close but far
How much you want
But can't reach that star
Tried but failed
Jumped but fell
Kept feelings, veiled
Left an empty cold shell

Day 1

Help

I need to

Keep it together

I feel my myself

Tearing at the seams

Its almost spilling over

The expired emotions

And its all smiles

On the outside

I'm comfortable that way

No one has to know

What's up in my head

I need to

Keep it together

But sometimes its too hard

Sometimes I want to stop the search

Out this labyrinth

Sometimes I want to sit down

And throw my bag aside

Sometimes giving up

Seems so sweet

'Sometimes' is now

But I have to push on

I can't

I refuse

I must not

Fall apart

I am strong

ish

But I'm trying

It's all that tells me

I'm not dead

Yet.