I want to feel light again.
Something cottony
like a cloud.
Something sweet
but mildly
like icing sugar.
I don't get that feeling anymore.
I don't know her name
or how to reach her.
I remember her though—
a specific sunlight.
A glare of pink, orange, purple, and blue.
Running to catch the bus.
Blades of grass growing though
the scalloped gaps in a brick pavement.
Laughter even though I am late. And it was my fault.
The smell of vinyl from our school-issued book bags.
Someone who loves me.
It was dizzying.
Diffused like a dream.
A mist in my reality
I tried not to break.
And maybe that's
"just life".
Losing things permanently.
The inability to archive.
Windows from a shard of sunlight.
Maybe that's just life.